2005-08-09T19:21:00.000Z

Just moved in here at Blogger. I was sat watching some crappy TV program, staring at the mobile phone, waiting for a text message from my ex-girlfriend who I'm desperately trying to get back with when I decided to come upstairs and start this... I've been threatening to do it for ages.

2005-08-09T12:41:00.000Z

My Ex Girlfriend

I am completely and utterly in love with her and I can't do anything to change that. She split up with me at the start of this year and for two months we hung out together. We carried on sleeping with each other - which is something I've never done before or thought I could do. After about 2 month's we decided to give it another go. We went on Holiday to France for 2 weeks and travelled round the country and then after getting back she dumped me again.

About a week later we went off to the Glastonbury Festival together. You'd think now we'd have stopped seeing each other and you'd think that we'd definitely stop sleeping with each other but ow no, it's carried on and we can't seem to break from each other. She went to Ireland on holiday with her Mum at the start of this month for 2 weeks - I spent the weekend with her before she left and she's back in a couple of days.

The weekend I saw her before she went away was amazing, something happened and we connected. I walked away from that feeling really positive and sure that when she gets back from Ireland we will get back together, it was so weird. It's only a couple of days now and I'm shitting bricks. Whilst she's been away I've been able to relax about it all but once she gets back there's no hiding away...

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